these nights I can't sleep before 3
even when I have no reason to stay up no job to avoid tomorrow morning
I stay up and stare at my phone worry about things far away
won't even be close soon
tell myself I should read a book I should have a night routine I should be asleep at an arbitrary hour but I don't
do any of that
so now it's 3 A.M.
and all I can hope is for deep vivid dreams when sleep finally comes